my grandfather passed away today at the age of 65.
he died of lung cancer, it had been coming for a long time and is a surprise to nobody. he hadn't been speaking for over a month now, just... laying and staring at the ceiling.
i wasn't particularly close to him, but it was still bizarre and disturbing to watch someone die, see them getting worse over time until they don't even recognize you with their own eyes.
first having difficulty doing basic tasks by himself, becoming more tired, his memory more weary, understanding less and less of the things around him, forgetting to take his pills, becoming unable to stand up anymore, talking less and less, forgetting who people around him were.
i'm not really trying to make any point. i'm just a bit confused.
may he rest in peace